my new FTM YOUTUBE Channel!


im ryan, and im ftm! yah

 i just wanted to post about my new youtube channel, where im trying to set up a place for people to talk about ftm everyday issues. Ive set up a few videos already and am open to ideas to make new videos. one of the more important reasons for doing this was because i felt that the lgbt community has a way of excluding queer people of color, and being hispanic myself, i identify with this feeling. i havent seen much out there based on these issues and thought maybe this could be a place for some of that to be spoken about.

well heres the channel check it out!

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intro post..

Hi, my name is Issiac... I just joined and wanted to introduce myself. I am straight, though you may not know that if you read my journal. I have only been with one man (mostly orally) and my wife (who is bisexual) and I are going to be with a completely bisexual couple this weekend. Any, in this new journey I surfed LJ in search of penis pix... to see if I actually have a preference. So far... not really. But, I did come across my very first tranny dick pic... and... wow! THAT could be my preference. All the enjoyment of sucking and all of the pleasure and reward of eating out. Please understand that I looked at the pic with the utmost respect (and maybe just a minimal amount of drool). I did not look at this guy or his genitals in a freakshow type way. I looked at it the same way a middle school kid looks at his first playboy... as if everything is new and exciting.

I just had to tell you all that. That and the fact that I think it is amazing that you all have the courage and the strength and the honesty with yourselves to be able to make that transition from the girl you were born to the man you were meant to be. I also want you to know that you should be proud of what you have. Never feel ashamed or as if "this is the hand I was dealt and I'm making the best of it" I think it is hott and I'm sure I'm not alone. But, genitalia is such a minor part of who we are as humans... but I don't have to tell you all that. Because you were able to look past anatomy and find the you inside and know that that is who you are and made your way to allowing the rest of the world to see what you have always felt from inside.

I apologize if anything I said here was wrong. So much of my life as of the past month has been NEW to me. So, I may not be perfect with the way I address things. But, I just had to join to say hi and applaud all of you for knowing who you are. That is THE most important thing in this world!


Just joined

Hey Everybody!
I just found out this community exists and am really excited. I'd been posting random, angsty things on a couple of FTM communities and on gay_boys, and got a lot of feedback from the latter, and very little from the former. Anyhow, I've kind of gotten past a lot of the angsty, my sexual identity can't handle this right now stuff and am settling down into being in love.
Here's my story. My senior year in highschool, I finally started dating this great guy I'd had my eye on for over a year. We drifted a little during the summer, and I broke things off at the end of the summer, not wanting to head into college attached (I was also trying to figure a lot of crap out, mostly surrounding my gender and sexuality). Anyhow, middle of my freshman year I came out as FTM and gay. I'm not sure when I told Evan, I think it was the middle of my sophomore year. He took it really well, was very supportive, etc. Anyhow, a couple of years went by, I started on T, changed my name, got to the point where I can't pass as a woman anymore (yea!!). So this summer we hung out a couple of times, and right before he left for school, he brought up the idea of us getting back together. I'd been thinking about it too for awhile, but thought it wasn't a possibility, especially since he's straight.
So, over the course of this last semester, we've hooked up again. It's been great. He's been very willing to accept what a long term relationship with me will mean in terms of the way other people view his sexual orientation, and has started referring to himself as "gay by choice." He's said that being straight was never a major part of his identity, and that becoming sexually active was a larger conceptual jump then becoming sexually active with another man (we're originally from a pretty conservative town), which was pretty much the same for me, when I made that leap with my last partner. A couple weeks a go, he told his parents we're back together, and apparently that went pretty well. As far as sexual orientations are concerned, our biggest obsticle now seems to be that he doesn't really understand why my sexual orientation is such a large part of my identity (of course, I don't entirely understand it either, but it is very closely linked with my gender identity and how and why I see myself as a man) and has been a little skeptical of my desire to pursue graduate work in queer studies, but I think he's warming up to that a little.
Anyhow, things are going really well right now, and I hope that they continue that way. Not sure yet where I'll end up, geographically speaking, next year (I'm currently applying to gradschools) and how this will effect our relationship. We're about 7 hours by train apart right now.
Also, i should be having my top surgery this winter, and I'm not sure how that will affect things either. Last time we got together we talked a little about it and looked at some pictures, and I got the impression that he was less worried about me not having breasts anymore, and more worried about it just looking really bizarre. I hope those fears have been a little assuaged, but I also emphasized that at first, it is going to look kind of bizarre (I didn't have any immediately post op pics at the time). Anyhow, I'm rambling, so I'll stop now.

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Hey there. I just found this community and thought I'd introduce myself. The name's Tobias. I'm a 19-year-old bisexual pre-everything FtM, with a straight bio-guy partner. I doubt he'll be joining anytime soon, as he's not big on communities, but I figured I'd join, at least. ;x

Normally I don't badger people with questions in my very first post, but I do have one. My partner was originally attracted to me as a female (before I came out to him), but didn't start dating me 'til recently (long after I came out to him). He's said that if we're still together when I'm able to begin physically transitioning that I will be "the one exception to [his] otherwise straight sexuality." This is, of course, one of the sweetest and most memorable things (to me, at least) that he's said. However, for some reason I still feel nervous and kind-of skirt around the topic in conversation, and even feel a bit guilty for the situation I'm putting him in (as he cares a great deal about what other people think of him and, unfortunately, has a lot of closed-minded people to deal with). Does anyone else have this problem? Do you find avoidance of the topic in discussion to be helpful when it comes to the nervousness? Does it resolve itself? Or is it better to discuss it whenever it surfaces? Normally, I'd just talk to him about it, but I hate for it to seem like that's all I talk about, y'know?

Thanks in advance!

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I'm a 36-year-old gay transman who is married to a straight cisgendered man. We have decided to stay married and we both still love each other. My husband worries that once I'll be on T that people who have not known us before my transition will see us a gay couple. He is in no way homophobic, but he simply wants people to understand how a straight man can still be in love with his spouse who is living and identifying as a man.
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Hi :D. My name is Erin, I'm 20 years old and am living in Melbourne, Australia, with my girlfriend. I'm female-bodied and identify as intergendered (specifically I see myself as both male and female) and lead a fairly abnormal lifestyle what with all the kink and the polyamoury and the chronic fatigue syndrome and such.

My GF (name of Jess) and I have another partner, by name of Phill. Jess and Phill were in a nice normal hetero relationship for about three years before I got involved about two years ago. Jess has always been pansexual as have I, but Phill has always been a heterosexual male and still identifies as that.

So I actually do have a reason for posting a whole new post instead of in the intro post, because I kind of want to vent and I'd like some other peoples' opinions - feel free to delete or whatnot if this isn't appropriate. Now, to be perfectly honest, this will be a bit angry-biased, because Phill has been a horrible boyfriend to both Jess and I for a few months now, but mostly I want to address things that were a problem between us even before he turned into a grade-A jackass.

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'Course, like I said, he's kind of a jackass, and the breakup will be official as soon as I can find the right time :p So it's entirely likely that all this wouldn't have been such a problem if he was simply a better partner. But I felt like I needed to vent and that the people in this community might have some understanding as to why this bothers me.